Kieryn Darkwater @bluepupboi@towns.gay

demoralized and feeling like I shouldn't be sharing my feelings too much because I live in Berlin and got my uterus out in 2018 when I saw the neon writing on the wall

I think the feeling I have underlying the rage and fear is just...demoralized.

pretty fucking cool to see a crane move over my apartment from my window tbh

TIL there's a Folsom Europe in Sept

I have managed to eat and have caffeine and take a shower immediately followed by soaking in Epsom salt and that helps.

Flare days are so hard

I've spent time in public and now I get to play: is it Fibro, Push Crash, or COVID?

My bet is on a fibro/push crash combo bc I haven't..........stopped, since like, 4 weeks after top surgery and now that we have a home I am feeling the bone-level exhaustion but I want to DO THINGS.

I have reserved a few hours for myself at the sauna all the Berlin trans ppl recommend for Friday morning. Pls clap

Lol I called it.

Saying punch a TERF is bad but them openly advocating for genocide is fine

Today is the first Monday at ✨ home✨ that I've had internet and damn is it nice to like.....actually be able to focus on work without the overhead of worrying where I'm gonna live.

I feel *stable* for the first time in years and it's fucking great. Love it. 10/10.

Wish it were possible to share with everyone tho. :(

We handed off the keys to the old place and are now in limbo in a hotel for 24hrs and then WE HAVE A HOME. We're so close to winning the Berlin Boss level.

TFW you go to the end and fall to your death bc your pinky cramped from holding shift

so heavy today

the kitten does not want me to use my computer today lmao

I have a meeting at 4 and I wish I were not so fatigued

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd just filled out the application to be in the tenant's union. hell yes

such a relief to know the new landlords have signed the contract so we definitely do have a place. Now it's just cleaning and packing and eating all the food in the fridge.